Navigating the line between what we’d decide together, and what was up to me, became a new challenge in our relationship. We went together to appointments, but she let me do the talking and the decision making. She told me it was my body, my future, and she’d be there beside me no matter what I did. I was grateful, but I mourned a world in which we'd have the time to figure out what we would want together, to be able to fully have her on my team.